The following is a journal put together by one of our members, Farmboy wt, covering his first 199 days quit in this quit dipping timeline.
VERY BRIEF JOURNAL OF MY FIRST 199 DAYS OF QUIT
Day 1 & 2 pretty much constant craving but I was on a quit high knowing this was the first time I actually even thought I could do this!
Day 3 – 5 this sucks, I’ve been questioning if I really want this that bad!
Day 6 & 7 OH SHIT!!! I was warned about raging was bad. No one said it could be that damn bad!!!!
Week 2 Total emotional wreck depressed and major anxiety!
Weeks 3 & 4 my mouth feels like shit, why quit I’m sure I have cancer so why quit now?
Weeks 5 – 8 I’m suffering staggering depression facing the fear of long term failure, sure everyone said only think today! My mouth still hurts, especially my tongue.
(the past 6 weeks have been filled with me having to dealing with multiple issues that have been excuses to dip, sever depression and anxiety, looking for ways to stay awake long hours, avoiding past abusive situations and multiple other stressful situations just life)
Week 10 faced with my first trial completely alone with no contacts to help! Huge success, I won with no problem. This was a huge confidence builder!!
Weeks 11 – 13 ups and downs, not a lot of confidence in myself. Still keep questioning if I can stay quit long term!
Days 95 – 100 unbelievable excitement and satisfaction that I’ve been successful.
Weeks 14 – 17 Coasting with less down days and shorter craves. My tools are working better.
Weeks 18 – 20 was feeling really tired of thinking about dip 24/7 pulled away from the amount of time I spent online.
Weeks 21 – 22 nothing special, just quit!
Week 23 Major funk. Almost a emotional breakdown, wanted to give up and cave! I hate dip, I hate quitting, I hate life and I hate myself for ever introducing the poison into my system!!!!
Weeks 24 – 26 ZERO craving!! Progress!
Week 27 had some minor, totally manageable craving.
Week 28 this has been a very interesting week. I have been suffering from depression that is not dip related and have had little or no craving but I still keep thinking that Copenhagen would some how help with my depression, or that I won’t stay away from it if the depression continues! Damn I hate this addiction and the way it screws with my mind!! Well I have no idea what is down the road 1 month, 1 year or a decade from now but I do know that I will not use nicotine today! I can do that, no matter how miserable my day is! I have my Quit partners that I cant let down and that I can call on if I’m in trouble.
I have saved over $500 and put that in my pocket instead of giving it to big tobacco!!!